Goddess of My Demons

By: The Infinite Isabella 

As I scream into the hurricane of the deepest Fears of My Soul

I open my eyes and witness as my body implodes and begins to glow

I purge and pour out The Pain and The Tears

I tremble and claw at Earth fearing The End is Near

But instead I re-lease the most mischievous of chuckles

I reach down to unzip my lifeless Skin and unlock my Heart’s buckles

Shedding lifetimes of memories along with the words "they"once spoke

Swearing to me it's just how things "work" because "they" "said so"

I surrender to my darkest most excruciating Fears so they could devour me whole

Yet as soon as they hit The Lime Light I swore a moment ago were fireflies

I can see the Truth stitched within The Lies

The "fireflies" transform into what has been beckoning to be-cum finally Seen

Turns out it was all just an illusion...just a "bad" dream

I realize that these Fears only "hurt" because they were clawing at the chains that were holding Me downnnn

They were franticly and devotedly attempting to free me into The Lime Light at the center of the vortex of my screams

Chanting my deepest darkest dreams on "repeat”

They Awaken Me.

...

Now that I AM.

I float up.

Almost like in an entranced Beckoning

Of this foreseen Reckoning

...

At the center of The Lime Light’s vortex, the chanting whispers continue to Siren Songs of Limitless Love

This Lime Light

Surrounds me and holds Me tight

As my eyes bleed Clarity and Insight

Into. My. Throattt.

....

Deep awakened inhale is summoned from my swirling Abyss

“Is this REAL AIR entering my once forsaken Lips!!??”

I let out a shrieking scream of Fury, Passion, and Freedom of Choice

For all along these whispers have been MY voice

The POWER I THRIVE

Has CUM. ALIVE.

I reveal to Myself that in order to re-member it All

I must admit that I know nothing at all

I quiver shake and I cry as I’m drifted to settle into my new scales

I see and dress myself with the purest and most wickedest veils

For they are one in the same

Preparing Me to play The Game

Thank you, Darkness, for leading My Trail into The Light

Thank you, Blindness, for leading My eyes into My Inner-Sight

Thank you, Purges, for filling Me with My Truth

Thank you, Pain, for leading Me to My Ecstasy

Thank you, Tears, for dressing Me with Transparency

Thank you, Fear, for caressing Me with My Deepest Desires

Thank you, Suffocation for leading Me to My Eternal Fire

Thank you, Surrender, for leading me to My Tower

Thank you, Weaknesses, for revealing to Me My Infinite Expanding Power

Thank you Lack, for demanding that I deserve it All in ex-change for Nothing

Thank you Nothing, for existing, so I can experience Everything

Thank you Lilith I love you again until Infinity where You reside

Thank you for revealing Us to Myself. I promise to never again hide.

Ahhhhoooo

-xoxo,izzy💋